My last blog post Time Heals talked about the future and how finally I felt like I had moved on from my illness last year. Perhaps I spoke too soon.
On Monday 18 June 2012 I saw my Surgeon because he finally had my biopsy result back. It was right at the end of his clinic and I hadn’t been told to bring a relative. Even though I thought something might be wrong; I think I had convinced myself it can’t be anything serious.
I’ve got cancer. Again/still. Whatever. It’s there.
I saw my Oncologist this evening and got all the facts. Next week I start chemotherapy. This time it’s two types which hopefully I won’t be allergic to. We’ll see what’s happening after three months and then blast it with some radiotherapy. I’ll have bone juice to keep things ticking over and every other drug going to stop the many side effects that I could potentially deal with.
There’s lots to it. More than I care to even think about but the above is basically all I need to think about for now.
Where is it? What cancer is it? Well, it’s still technically bowel cancer. It’s that strand. This time though it’s not in my actual bowel. It’s in my left leg. The groin lymph node. You aren’t getting big medical words tonight. No way. At least that explains why I’m finding it difficult to walk and why my left leg constantly hurts.
That’s it really. That’s my news.
sitemanagergal 
I am so so so sorry. I feel totally devastated for you. I’ll be praying for you. Loads of love char_08 xxx
Thank you, Charlotte. It’ll get sorted. It’s just a really annoying blip.
Hannah xx
Hi Hannah, That really is c**p news, and nothing I can say will make it better for you, but I am thinking of you and am sending you a big hug and lots of love. You are a strong young woman with the will to get through this. Your oncology team are not going to want to let you down either so they will be pulling out all the stops for you too. Together, the plan is a good one, even if it is scary and something you wouldn’t chose in any other circumstances. Best wishes, Lil
Hi Lilian
Thank you for your message. I read that just at the right time and it stopped me crying on the train (again). Oncology team are very different this time round. They seem more up for the fight. I’ll go along with it, and shall try to see some humour when possible! Thank you for all your support.
Hugs
Hannah xx
I’m shocked and saddened to hear its ‘C’ back again, I hope this time they will zap the little blighters left behind. Hugs, prayers and love x x Liz x x
Dear Liz
Thank you for your message and kind words. We’re going to zap it big style. They’re pulling out the big guns.
Hannah xx
Oh my goodness. I discovered your blog a few weeks ago, and cheered when I got to the end. Stuffing thing’s evil. I’m so sorry you have to go through another round. I’m useless at what to say, but I hope you realise there are a lot more people with you through this than you might imagine. Sending all best wishes and the good stuff to you. Cate
Dear Cate
Thank you for your comment. Thank you for the best wishes and kind words. Means a lot to me. I totally understand what you mean and I’m so grateful for the support I get through the blog, twitter and various forums. Am very lucky (in some ways).
Thank you again. Hopefully future posts will be positive.
Hannah xx
OK, not the most clear of communications. I meant to say: I hope you realise there are lots more people wishing you well through this than you might imagine. The power of the blog. x Sorry.
Hi Hannah
You’ve had the news that I’m dreading hearing although at some point I know I will as I still have cancer cells in my abdomin. I wish you well with this next round of chemo and I admire your ability to talk logically about what is happening to you. Whenever I try that the tears start, I think I’m still at the stage where I’m mourning my old life. Good luck with the next few months.
Karen